Saturday, May 9, 2009
Uncertainty
Just had dinner w a fren.. how do u respond when some1 tells u they have fallen for you 6months 3days n 4hours ago.. we were just jokin ard.. n i said wow u finally decided to be nice to me.. cuz he offered to walk me to my car.. n the next sentence tat came out of his mouth was kinda shocking.. that really wasn't expected.. its not supposed to happen.. he's just a gd fren to me.. i've known him for so long.. he knows how i think i know how he thinks.. but.. i see him as a brother.. nth else.. i guess i'm breakin his heart again.. cuz i just walked away after telling him the only person i can ever love is some1 else.. sometimes i wonder y i'm such an ass.. but its better off this way.. often times i feel numb n incapable of love.. what really is the word love anyways.. not sure if i'll ever find out the meaning of it.. i guess i'll just be contented the way i am.. and y can't i be frenz w guys without them falling for me? what's wrong with me.. or them.. there really is nth to like bout me.. so.. i oso dunno.. arghz.. life is just too complicated..
// hope pumpkin gets better soon.. :( //
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